Starting Line!

I have always wanted to start blogging about my crazy path to happier and healthy living all while joggling recovery from bulimia/anorexia, depression/anxiety, health issues, marriage, motherhood and day to day living.  I've been struggling with starting because I just do not know where or how to start.  So, here I go...

I've realized that for the past 33 years, I've been traveling the crazy path trying to break free into the "normal"  world that my brain and the world created for me.  Huh,what a crock of, well, crap!  Normal? Seriously?  Truth is, normal is a truthful word for "it just ain't gonna happen and normal is all just imaginative".  I've struggled with bulimia and anorexia since the age of 11 and since have battled with major depression among other mental and non-mental diagnoses.  I always would say to myself and others that "I just want to be normal".  My normal meant happy go lucky, feeling free, drinking coffee with friends before work and being able to handle it all.  In a way, I feel like the failing perfectionist because I set my standards for myself so high and pile it on thick that most times I cannot even achieve half of the goal or task.

Over the past year I have come to many realizations to aid in recovery and better living all around.  I have a ton of work left and that is okay because that is life.  Like the old saying goes, "You learn something new everyday".  In my blog writing I am hoping to reach out to other moms battling with similar issues, especially depression.  I want others to know that no matter what the issues at hand are, you can get through it and in the end, it can be okay. I've been through a lot of crap in my 33 years and am very certain that I will go through a lot more as I continue to live my life.  So, as I continue to live my life, I want you to do the same.  LIVE life.  Not just wake up and go through the motions but to actually start living.  It's hard as heck, but we can do it with small changes.  I've started with gratitude.  I am so grateful for my 2 children.  Each day I try to capture a moment with them.  It may be only a minute long (you know kids!). Being in the backyard gardening, beach time or just holding a conversation of something they are interested in.

I am so not perfect and like I said, I have tons of work to do on myself but I have a PURPOSE in this world and I really feel that a part of that purpose is to reach out and share my story, inspire those suffering while keeping my eyes open to those inspiring me.

Thank you for reading my first post in my very first blog.  I am so excited as I have so many ideas of what and how to share my crazy life journey!

Love Simple,

Sara